I was thinking how beautiful this background is and all festive and was thinking how much Vanessa must love it, since she did love Christmas and decorating and all that. And I just realized that this is Mike & Alice's tree. It is beautiful and I love the pictures of Vanessa all around.
Vanessa would be happy to see it. She loved this time of year. I miss going to see the Christmas tree at Rockefeller Center, the big red ball ornaments, the 5th Ave window displays and all the other festive decorations with her. We tried to do it yearly.
You are always in my thoughts pupa (as well as ur family). I find myself just randomly bringing you up in conversation sometimes. It's surreal to think that over 3 years has passed. I think most of the time I block it out because when you sit down and really think about it it is too much to bear =(. It was unfair and unimaginable. I know you are in a better place now and surrounded by much more. I find myself thinking what would Vanessa say to this or that, especially when I find myself in situations that I know you'd crack up over or give me advice on.
At least all your loved ones know they have a very special angel looking over on us and giving us guidance. I truly do think "Vanessa woulda loved this" or "Vanessa woulda thought I was crazy here". I really miss that, just the common phrases and stuff.
I love you and miss you much =(
