I miss Your laughter, fun, and gentleness.
I miss the things I used to do for You.
I miss the time, now filled with emptiness,
When each day was a stage for something new.
I miss Your Love, though mine for You remains,
A passion with no outlet to the sea,
A teardrop in a desert, that contains
What's left of my maternal ecstasy.
I miss Your presence, like a silent chord
That anchored even solitude in grace.
I miss, for my Love's labor, the reward
Of seeing some small pleasure in Your face.
All these I miss, and yet they are all here
Within my heart, far more than I can bear.
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| Your Loving Mommy | My Precious Vanessa | November 21, 2013 |
| Loving Mommy | I Remember You with All My LOVE | September 20, 2013 |
I remember You ever day my beautiful girl.I remember that day You were born was the BEST day of my life and when Your bother was born too...I remember Your first word'Momma'I remember Your first steps,and Your firsteverything I REMEMBER.I remember when Your brother was born and You was the first one to see him and hold him. I remember Your red hair. I remember how You Loved babies and the elderly. I remember Your compassion for others. I remember how much You Loved Your brother. I remember how much You loved Mommy and Daddy.I remember how You Loved Your grand-parents,Your Aunts,Uncles and Your cousins.I remember when You wanted to go to Malta every summer.I remember when You wanted to go to Malta for good and Daddy got You the one way ticket,after a week I remember You called crying and saying You wanted to come back because You missed us,and I remember telling You to go to Victoria and get another Ticket to come back.I remember You did come back to us. I remember how You sunburned so easily. I remember how much You Loved to swim. I remember the time You wanted to cut Your hair short .I still have the long hair in Your Photo Album. I remember when You told me that You met Jesus in Your Meditation and You wrote it down and Your Teacher gave You an A. I remember Your first bedspread, the Mickey Mouse with Goofy on it,Your Favourite one, and the toy shelf dad made for Your room. I remember when You walked to school every day in kindergarten and crying every morning,and I would go home crying too,and now I cry everyday for You. I remember what You looked like when Your two front teeth were missing. I remember how You Loved to watch cartoons,stop the Video,rewind and start again. I remember the first time Daddy took You to the Movies and I would be looking from the window waving to You and Daddy. I remember the first time I took You to Malta. I remember how much You Loved Your baby food Peaches the most.I remember all Your Birthday's celebrated in Malta with Your Cousin Samantha and all Your friends would come.I remember when You went out with Your brother.I remember when You went out together and You would go with Your friends and your brother with his friends,and he would call You and You would leave Your friends to go and pick him up,I remember how Your friends would say to us You and Your brother have unconditional Love for each other,and how they wissh they were the same. I remember how much You Loved Your brother. I remember Your strength and how hard You fought. And these are only the things that I remember today. Every day there are more things to remember about my beautiful girl.I REMEMBER YOU ALL MY LIFE
| Your Loving Mommy | My Forever Vanessa | September 13, 2013 |
God had brought You into my life then He called You home. You were my life, my reason for living. You made my life so full of Love and happiness. My heart aches to hold You again. I miss You ,Your smile, Your voice, Your laugh, Your witty humor, and Your sweet kiss upon my cheek. The memories You gave me will outlast the pain and sadness I feel today and everyday. Time has not helped to heal the pain ... I just learn to live with the loss and memories are all I have left. The only thing that seems to keep me going is Daddy and Your brother and trying to focus on the good times we had together. The time that God let us borrow our Angel here on earth and the fact that we shall meet again. Although You are gone from my presence my Precious daughter You live on strongly in my heart.Your life was a Blessing, Your memory a treasure... You are Loved beyond words and missed beyond measure... You are forever Loved and eternally missed in my heart and soul.
"Love is a moment that lasts forever... There is no emotion superior to LOVE
"Love is a moment that lasts forever... There is no emotion superior to LOVE
| Forever Your Loving Family | Let Your Light Shine on us VEE | July 10, 2013 |
Her eyes were dim and glassy as VEE gazed into the sky,
She knew she was getting weaker, she knew that she would die.
The Lord wrapped His arms around her and took her by the hand,
He said "Come with Me, my darling, to God's Eternal land.”
The days have passed so quickly and we all miss You so,
There are times we can hardly wait till it's our time to go.
The last night that we spent with You, You were so weak You could not speak,
But You looked us in the eyes when we spoke, as we wiped tears from our cheeks.
Your dreams were most accomplished,You did Your very best
And You left a lasting impression on all You had said.
Our smiles try to hide our heartaches and we say we are doing fine,
But those who have experienced death know how it changes you in time.
Every day we are reminded of the good things that you did,
You cared so much for others, especially for Your brother.
God looked around his garden and saw an empty space,
He then took a look around the earth and saw Your suffering face.
She knew she was getting weaker, she knew that she would die.
The Lord wrapped His arms around her and took her by the hand,
He said "Come with Me, my darling, to God's Eternal land.”
The days have passed so quickly and we all miss You so,
There are times we can hardly wait till it's our time to go.
The last night that we spent with You, You were so weak You could not speak,
But You looked us in the eyes when we spoke, as we wiped tears from our cheeks.
Your dreams were most accomplished,You did Your very best
And You left a lasting impression on all You had said.
Our smiles try to hide our heartaches and we say we are doing fine,
But those who have experienced death know how it changes you in time.
Every day we are reminded of the good things that you did,
You cared so much for others, especially for Your brother.
God looked around his garden and saw an empty space,
He then took a look around the earth and saw Your suffering face.
He put His arms around You and lifted You to rest,
God's garden must be beautiful, cause He only takes the Best.
You tried Your best to teach us before You went away,
We now have a better understanding of what You tried to say.
Always know we Love You and no one can take Your place,
Tho' many years can come and gone Your memory will NEVER be erased.
God's garden must be beautiful, cause He only takes the Best.
You tried Your best to teach us before You went away,
We now have a better understanding of what You tried to say.
Always know we Love You and no one can take Your place,
Tho' many years can come and gone Your memory will NEVER be erased.
So when each day starts without You, we won't seem so far apart,
Because every time we think of YOU, You will be right here in OUR HEARTS.
So Jesus if You are listening in your home from up above,
Would You kiss OUR DARLING VANESSA and give her ALL OUR LOVE.
Because every time we think of YOU, You will be right here in OUR HEARTS.
So Jesus if You are listening in your home from up above,
Would You kiss OUR DARLING VANESSA and give her ALL OUR LOVE.
| Forever Your LOVING Family | Our Most Precious Daughter/Sister | June 28, 2013 |
My darling Vanessa almost 7 heart breaking years ago , You were called away. We wish You near VEE, everyday. Never forgotten. Our memories are now our special link. In dreams You live,we hold You close. Love so pure and so true with every dose. Your legacy of Love and Honor, will Live on forever in our hearts- Through us all, Your lifetime endeavor. Heart and Soul Daughter-Sister-Cousin-Niece-Friend!!
Seven year ago Vanessa left this world. After 1 1/2 years of battling, Vanessa finally won the war. She fought for her life like the bravest soldier on any battlefield. She faced every obstacle and every hurdle with courage, faith,and determination. Sure, Vanessa was afraid. But Vanessa found courage to face each CT scan, each new treatment and its side effects, But that is what courage is-facing and dealing with something when you are afraid.Her life went from being happy and carefree to a life of hospital and doctors and just trying to beat the cancer that invaded her body. She did all of this with a positive attitude-always with a smile on her face.
For the last year and a half of her life, she had a lot of time on her hands. Vanessa couldn't get out and do things that she wanted to do. Her friends, couldn't visit her for fear they were carrying a virus which could have been life threatening for Vanessa..The medicines she took and the effects of the chemotherapy affected the way she looked, her emotions, her health,every thing about her life.
But Vanessa found happiness in the small things. She loved going on her computer. She loved playing cards with her mom . Vanessa loved watching movies with her Aunt (Zija Mary ),and her cousin Samantha. There were days that you won't even think that Vanessa was sick.
Vanessa loved reading. She would stay up very late reading. Vanessa loved having friends visit when she felt good. She loved getting cards and gifts from people because she knew people cared about her. Her life was different, but she made the most of it.
Vanessa changed as her illness progressed. Oh, she was for the most part still the same Vanessa. She was still outspoken, a bit snappy at times, and sometimes brutally honest. But at the same time, she came to know things about life that most people probably never do. Vanessa learned to know the difference between what was important and unimportant. Vanessa learned not to take life for granted and to cherish every moment of it. Vanessa learned to find contentment in simple things. Vanessa learned to not let vanity keep her from doing the things she wanted when she was able to do them. Vanessa came to understand people-to see beyond their actions, to understand their motives, to forgive them and to ask for their forgiveness. Vanessa learned that she could not change people and to accept that fact. She became a very humble person. Vanessa loved people in a new way with a new heart. Vanessa grew to understand what her life was about-the purpose of it.
Vanessa was very concerned very much about her Family. Vanessa asked God to bless them with happy productive lives and to help them realize what was truly important in their lives. She asked God to give her mommy and daddy and her brother strength no matter what happened. Even when she was at the end of her life, her main concern was for others and her most Loved Family.
Vanessa knew that she would be okay. Vanessa knew God's promises for her and that at the end of her life she would be in His hands. She looked forward to be with her Grandma Iris and Grandpa Charlie,Nannu Frans ,cousin Joe,Zija Salvina Nanna and Nannu Buzz ,Bethany,Cathy,Aimee's Parents and all her Angel Friends. She knew she would never have children here on earth, but she hoped that in Heaven there would be children that she could care for.That's what Vanessa wanted to be a Teacher,and we know she is teaching in Heaven.Vanessa loved her life here and certainly didn't want to leave her loved ones, but she also knew that something much greater than we could ever imagine awaited her. She had been at the brink of death before and she had a foretaste of the glory to come.
My life will never be the same without MY VANESSA . I will always Miss Her. I will always Love Her. A part of me will always be broken. I will never let YOU go. VANESSA was my first born child, my Joy, my Hopes and my Dream. But because of MY VANESSA , I can look beyond myself and find the strength she asked God to give me to go on day to day. Because of MY VANESSA , I can find Hope, if not in this life, then at least in the next. VANESSA taught me so much. My prayer is that I can live my life pleasing to God and His will and that He will forgive me of my doubts and my shortcomings.Forever and always Your Loving Mommy Daddy Your brother Vincent
For the last year and a half of her life, she had a lot of time on her hands. Vanessa couldn't get out and do things that she wanted to do. Her friends, couldn't visit her for fear they were carrying a virus which could have been life threatening for Vanessa..The medicines she took and the effects of the chemotherapy affected the way she looked, her emotions, her health,every thing about her life.
But Vanessa found happiness in the small things. She loved going on her computer. She loved playing cards with her mom . Vanessa loved watching movies with her Aunt (Zija Mary ),and her cousin Samantha. There were days that you won't even think that Vanessa was sick.
Vanessa loved reading. She would stay up very late reading. Vanessa loved having friends visit when she felt good. She loved getting cards and gifts from people because she knew people cared about her. Her life was different, but she made the most of it.
Vanessa changed as her illness progressed. Oh, she was for the most part still the same Vanessa. She was still outspoken, a bit snappy at times, and sometimes brutally honest. But at the same time, she came to know things about life that most people probably never do. Vanessa learned to know the difference between what was important and unimportant. Vanessa learned not to take life for granted and to cherish every moment of it. Vanessa learned to find contentment in simple things. Vanessa learned to not let vanity keep her from doing the things she wanted when she was able to do them. Vanessa came to understand people-to see beyond their actions, to understand their motives, to forgive them and to ask for their forgiveness. Vanessa learned that she could not change people and to accept that fact. She became a very humble person. Vanessa loved people in a new way with a new heart. Vanessa grew to understand what her life was about-the purpose of it.
Vanessa was very concerned very much about her Family. Vanessa asked God to bless them with happy productive lives and to help them realize what was truly important in their lives. She asked God to give her mommy and daddy and her brother strength no matter what happened. Even when she was at the end of her life, her main concern was for others and her most Loved Family.
Vanessa knew that she would be okay. Vanessa knew God's promises for her and that at the end of her life she would be in His hands. She looked forward to be with her Grandma Iris and Grandpa Charlie,Nannu Frans ,cousin Joe,Zija Salvina Nanna and Nannu Buzz ,Bethany,Cathy,Aimee's Parents and all her Angel Friends. She knew she would never have children here on earth, but she hoped that in Heaven there would be children that she could care for.That's what Vanessa wanted to be a Teacher,and we know she is teaching in Heaven.Vanessa loved her life here and certainly didn't want to leave her loved ones, but she also knew that something much greater than we could ever imagine awaited her. She had been at the brink of death before and she had a foretaste of the glory to come.
My life will never be the same without MY VANESSA . I will always Miss Her. I will always Love Her. A part of me will always be broken. I will never let YOU go. VANESSA was my first born child, my Joy, my Hopes and my Dream. But because of MY VANESSA , I can look beyond myself and find the strength she asked God to give me to go on day to day. Because of MY VANESSA , I can find Hope, if not in this life, then at least in the next. VANESSA taught me so much. My prayer is that I can live my life pleasing to God and His will and that He will forgive me of my doubts and my shortcomings.Forever and always Your Loving Mommy Daddy Your brother Vincent
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